Live Fast, Die Young

Why is it that the good ones always go so early? I lost a friend of mine the other day. He was like my brother in highschool. We've lost touch a little bit but we still talked every now and then. I just feel like shit because i feel i should have been around more for him. In highschool we talked all the time and when he was in basic training i wrote to him faithfully 2 summers in a row. and i have every letter. i read them from time to time and remember the boy he used to be. I feel like ass because i should have spent more time with him. Lyndsey says we always think there is more time. but really, there isnt always more time. what gets me is the viewing is private so its family only. so we arent going to get our closure. its not fair to us. I miss him. :(

well, im rambling i just needed to get some stuff out. ill try to write again soon.

until next time,
let everyone close to you know how much they mean to you.

~*Diddy*~

RIP JOSHUA SETH CADLE

Happy Holidays

Well, long time to write huh. I'm a little more cheerful since my last entry. haha. Lets see whats been up.

Not a whole lot really. Just workin my butt off day in and day out. Christmas is coming. Its my favorite time of year. I like it a whole lot better this year than I did the last 2 years. Im not in retail anymore and I dont have to stress out as much. I have my share of bad days but its nothing like workin at the bullseye. I have spent so much money on xmas this year...alot of money i shouldnt have spent. lol. Speaking of which, I went shopping last night and I lost one of my bags. I had a gift for steves sister and I lost the bag...gone. We've called around to see if i left it somewhere in the mall and no one turned it in. bastards. someone saw it and said oh free xmas present!! yea screw you i hope your christmas sucks. lol.

Im really struggling here. I dont know what to write about. Im working on a course for work. I have 2 lessons to go out of 9. After I finish it I have to take a final and then I will get a raise. A small one but every penny counts. Haha. Bills are kicking my ass. Car Insurance, Car Payment, Student Loans, 2 Credit Cards....Ill be glad when I can get atleast one of those cards paid off so I have one less bill to worry about. But now that I went crazy with it for Christmas its going to take awhile. HAHA.

Well, Im at work and I dont know what to write about. No one reads anyway i never get comments. I'll catch ya'll soon. If I dont write before have a Merry Christmas and a safe New Year.

Forget it

Ya kno the last few days everyone has been asking me whats wrong. I dont seem myself. Im not cheerful....You wanna know why......forget life. im sick of it all together. I work 40+ hours a week....to barely bring in enough money to pay for my car payment and insurance. its retarded. Also, Im sick of my house. i hate that im 21 years old and still sharing a room with my mom...I cant do anything in there cuz shes always in bed. no lie. My room needs cleaned like you wouldnt believe but you kno I cant do that cuz shes in bed all freaking day. Yesterday i came home from a shitty day at work and what do ya kno she hadnt been out of bed ALL day so i couldnt even go in my room and chill cuz she was in there still sleeping. Its bullshit and i hate it. Then to top it off...my boyfriend who suposidly quit smoking a year ago was smoking again. fuck this. im done. i cant deal with it anymore. i just want to pick up and move away and forget life in altoona and everyone in it :(

later
Diddy

Gonna party till the break of dawn

Well, I havent written in ages. I am so bad about keeping up with this thing. Its really rather stupid to keep posting because no one reads anyway.

I really havent been up to much. Just working basically. Tryin hard to make commission but so far it hasnt happend yet. Oh I bought a new car and im basically broke because of it. I love it though. Its hot. 2006 Pontiac G6 GTP. I just wish my job paid a little more because after insurance and a car payment, i basically have enough money to pay for my 2 credit cards. Student loans are coming and I think dad is going to have to help me pay those back because I'm not going to have it. Unless a miracle arises. But we'll see.

Steve got a job! A good one too. Im so excited for him. He deserves it. He will be getting benefits and everything after 60 days. Im so proud of him. And his bos said that if he goes and gets his CDL license and his pa inspection license he will be making more money. This could be it his calling and it helps me breathe a sigh of relief because I know hes the one, I know that if he can keep this job we can have a future together and nothing makes me more happy than that feeling. I love him with all my heart and I would like to shout it so loud that the world could hear.

I have been feeling a little down about myself lately. I feel like im not pretty enough. I feel fat and disgusting and im not sure why. Maybe its because my pants are getting tighter than they used to be. its because all i do is sit on my ass at work. Adam and i go on like 15 min walks everyday but i guess thats not enough.

My 21st bday is one week from today. im gettin excited. i just hope i dont puke,

well, im talkin to my baby, im gonna go. i'll try to update soon.

Until Next Time

~*Diddy*~

The time of my life

Hello folks. Its been awhile I know...but im working a shit ton and barely have time to breathe let alone post on here. But here I am.

Since my last post I attended the American Idols Live tour with my best friend mitchell. It was a pretty fun day. we met at target in the morning, picked up the rental car...which was...drum roll please...a cadillac cts. we were pimpin it out on the way to pittsburgh thats for sure. after picking up the rental we headed for pittsburgh and went to the monroeville mall. i bought a pair of jeans and an abercrombie shirt and mitch bought a pair of sunglasses that he later decided he didnt like. haha. after spending most of the day at the mall we headed for the mellon arena. we ran into some people we knew and hung out with them in line. Keep in mind i was going into this show not knowing what to expect seeing as how i never watched a show this season. but i must say the show was fantastic. David cook blew my mind. im now a fan. hes pretty much amazing and i just want to thank mitchell for inviting me. i had a blast! im not real good with the whole recap thing so if you want a play by play you may want to check out his blog. its linked on the side of my site. :)

I bought a laptop today. Its a sony vaio. i love it :) i feel i got a decent deal on it so we'll see lol. im sorry this is short but im sleepy and steve is here ;) we're gonna go chill. Catch you all soon!

until next time
~*Diddy*~

Well Hello Readers...the very few that there are.
Im finally back to write. Im horrible with updating this thing and for that I am sorry. I promise i'll try to come back more often.

In my last entry I mentioned a job interview with Atlantic Broadband. Well, I got the job. I started on June 10th. June 9th was my last day at Target and I cried like a baby. Literally. It was sad but I go in to visit alot. And I still talk to my bestest Mitchell ona regular basis. Anyway, I just finished up training at ABB and I start on the phones on my own tomorrow and im pretty scared about it. The job is ok. Alot of the people are awesome and i can tell I'm going to make some new friends there. Also, The pay checks are damn good compared to what I was getting at target. Like triple the amount which rox my world.

Im looking for a new car. Only problem is, my insurance is going to be sky high. oh well guess thats wat i get. lol

well im sorry this is short but today is my last saturday off and i am going to go find something to do. big mouth subs ruined my day by calling steve into work so now i dont have anything to do. its lame. I wanted to go to community days tonite and now i doubt im gonna be able to go. its stupid. I can never go when i want. i wanted to go the past 2 years and couldnt cuz i had to work. bull shit.

im out. leave comments please.

Now that its all said and done...

Well, yes folks...ive done it. I've graduated penn highlands community college with an associates degree...with honors none the less. go me. Graduation was cool. My best friends and my family were there to cheer me on. Thank you to Mitchell, Chris, Steve, my fam...and the big angry midget matthew for showing up. it means alot to me that you all came. The party afterward was fun too. everyone that i wanted to come showed up did, well with exception of mitch. But it made my nite. So now what is in store for diddy? Well folks, the job search is on.

Speaking of job search, I had an interview with atlantic broadband yesterday. It seemed to go well and I think i may get the job. The only downside to that being, its second shift which means i work from 2:30-11 thursday-monday. but its full time, benefits, and good cash flow. so i'll take what i can get and i'll just have to rearrange my social scheduel. wish me luck.

other than that, nothing much is happening. im trying to get more hours at the bullseye..but im not gonna hold my breath. i guess thats all i have for you today. i just kind of had a brain fart and everything i was going to say has left, so i'm gonna go. lol. have a good day and i'll try to write soon.

until we meet again,
~*Diddy*~